My grandfather is becoming senile. He forgets
where he puts things. He forgets where he's going. He forgets why his
foot has been bandaged up after they removed cancerous cells from his
toes. But he can remember, like it was yesterday, being a kid in Canton
and watching the giant forms of Han Chinese walking through the sky on
the strutworks of the first bridge to span the Pearl River. He remembers
discovering what a battery is, and trying to bring electricity to his
parents' tiny third story apartment by rigging together an old battery, a
light bulb, and some wires (it didn't work). He remembers going to
missionary school in Shanghai, and skipping ahead two grades so that by
the time World War II came to China he had just obtained the highest
educational degree he would ever receive—his sixth grade certificate.
He remembers fleeing before the Japanese invasion a second time as a
young man, running and running until his shoes fell off and his feet
began to bleed and running still some more with the sounds of tanks and
machine guns behind him. He remembers the man who shared half a ball of
rice with him on the evening he might have starved to death. And he
remembers the day he ran into his sister, my aunty Pearl, months later
at a church social in an inland city hundreds of miles away from home
after they had lost touch with everyone else in their family.
I find it strange sometimes how incognizant we are of time, how mostly it slips out from under us quietly and unnoticed. Every day we wake up, we go about our business, we go to sleep. Someday we will wake up, blink our eyes, and find old age upon us. I told my grandmother that time seems to move faster as you get older. “Ha ha ha, try it when you're 84 years old!” she said. “The decades go by like they're nothing!”
I find it strange sometimes how incognizant we are of time, how mostly it slips out from under us quietly and unnoticed. Every day we wake up, we go about our business, we go to sleep. Someday we will wake up, blink our eyes, and find old age upon us. I told my grandmother that time seems to move faster as you get older. “Ha ha ha, try it when you're 84 years old!” she said. “The decades go by like they're nothing!”
And then there are the babies. In just a few short weeks they learn to
smile, to use their eyes. They start to laugh, and crawl, and
talk. It seems everyday they're noticeably changed. And their parents
know that each moment they have with their child is something to be
cherished, because in the binge of their unstoppable growth, the present
moment is constantly being swept away by the next, and the next, and
the next...

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